The Heaven’s Gate
I am standing at the gate of St. George Serbian Orthodox Cemetery in Pittsburgh. This is not my first time here. I visited the cemetery several times, each time during different season of the year.
This time, the cemetery does not reminding me of the great poem by Dr. Aleksandar Petrov, a known poet and editor of “American Srbobran. (The poem should definitely be read.) This time, the cemetery reminds me of a film by Michael Cimino. The film carries the same title as this article. (The film should definitely be seen.)
I am entering and my eyes begin to follow row after row of tombstones that, as by the rule, carry Serbian crest with four “C”. Some tombstones are meticulously maintained. Others are slanted and slightly sunk; they do not have any descendents anymore. Trbovic, Mamula, Musulin, Zatezalo, Popovic. There are even Kovacevics. We are not related; they mostly derive ancestry from Krajina – Lika, Kordun, Banija and North Dalmatia.
I am passing by a lot that provokes nostalgia in me every time. It is a child’s grave. A small graves, small thumb stones, but with big Serbian Crest. For a countless time, I am reading names, date of birth, date of death… Some of them lived only a few days, but already christened in the St. Sava church. Those were that kind of times; people were dying from colds because for medicine there was no money.
Like other immigrants from East Europe at the turn of the 20th century, Serbs worked the hardest jobs in the toughest of conditions, poorly paid and degraded. That was “the promised land” they came to. The dignity was the only thing they had left. Partially because of this, Serb from Pittsburgh and vicinity organized their own society in distant 1901. At least now they had someone to burry them when time comes. Later, from this nucleic organization emerges the largest and the oldest Serbian organization in North America – Serb National Federation. They were building churches, organized cultural and sports societies, strived to preserve their fait, language and tradition. They were helping the ancestral lands with monetary donation and with lives by enlisting into volunteer brigades for all wars. The roots and connection with the motherland had to be preserved at any cost. There, far away (Tamo Daleko)…
Right next to the Serbian cemetery there is Jewish cemetery. I don’t know if this was coincidence or not. From one elevated peak with a wooden cross, I can see David stars on the top of Jewish thumb stones. (One of my sons name is David.)
I am lighting a candle under this cross, then I sit down on a meticulously cut grass and light a cigarette. I am opening a small bottle of “Slivovitz” that I brought to share with my ancestors. I spill a bit on the grass and than take a sip. I light another cigarette and leave it burning under the cross. Who knows when they had their last cigarette?
I am beginning to feel afraid. I am afraid of disunity. I am afraid of a possibility that Serbs here in North America and “there far away” in the Motherland cannot find modus vivendi for common and supreme national interest. I am afraid that we may lose our state, and then wait another thousand years for us to make it again. Just like Jews. There is little time. For us it is “five after twelve” not “five to twelve”.
I am leaving the cemetery stopping by the gate again thinking about Cimino’s film. Was the Elis Island the “Heaven’s Gate” where the immigrants disembarked their ships, or was this gate?
For us, who should continue the tradition, there are many difficulties and tasks ahead. These Serbs, who are lying behind this Heaven’s Gate, whose unselfish efforts have left something behind, are at least serene in their eternal rest.
Dragan Kovacevic
